The Latest News...

has a mix of positive and negative reactions. I was thinking (which is NEW for me anyways) of how I was going to present the information. The news came on the same day, the same visit with a doctor. I am beginning to think that all my outside activity brings me to a doctor's office. What a way to go....

First we go with the good news... I have lost another 3 pounds. It seems strange that I finally am able to lose. I do know that it is my fault that I couldn't in the first place. I am accomplishing a goal, fulfilling a dream and making my life better. I also am reading my scriptures more...that's good news because it gives me an edge on my daily mood. The more I communicate with the religious side of me, the better it is to make the decisions I need to make that are so serious in my life. I am eating less...it is getting easier to push away the food and go on. Just a wonderful thought has occured, I have heard that it takes 21 days (3 weeks) to make or break a habit. It is well into week 5 since I had a soda. I still think of having them, but I maintain that I feel better without the temptation in my life...

Now for the not so good news...My tests (thought I only had 1 left), has advanced to two tests...Dang it, I thought I was almost done. I guess that will be ok. I went to my Cardiologist this week and had my yearly exam. It pretty much came out the same as last year. I didn't have to do the stress test but when the doctor came into the room, he presented me with a quick and decisive question. "It appears that your ECG is looking strange. It did last year also but I felt at the time that you would be ok after we did the stress test".  Ok? I said to him and myself mostly...the thought occured to me that things were not going to happen as far as my Bariatric Surgery was concerned. He saw the obvious look of frustration on my face and said "Don't worry about your future, I just want to do an Angiogram on your heart. I then feel that you will do great for the Bariatric Surgery afterwards." I smiled some and said that it would be alright. He didn't want me to have to deal with the 90 to 10 prospect of death should I have a heart attack. I continued the somewhat stoney smile and walked out the door, received the appointment information and walked out to the car.

I really wasn't so upset at the prospect of another surgery, which I now feel is strange, but I do feel frustrated with the idea of having to wait another week or two for my B. Surgery. I know that I am blessed with good doctors and I know that Heavenly Father is making sure that all steps are taken for the success of my future. I am blessed with a good family and life. I am thankful for all I have, especially my family, friends and accomplishments I have made...GOOD FOR ME!!!