Tough Days are the best!

Yeah, I know it sounds kind of strange, saying tough days are the best. They are in a sense of learning and going on. I have been on this diet maintenance situation for over 6 months now. It is not an easy thing for a gal that likes her cookies and pastas. I can go without the meat really easy, but put noodles in front of me and here I go, porking it all down. I say this because I have had a challenging last few weeks. I haven't up to this time, been sincerely trying to lose the weight. I've been breezing through the meetings and just taking it really easy. The last month or so, things finally got to me and I became serious.

Now, that I am getting it so to speak, it gets harder to accomplish my goal. I was challenged two weeks ago to try to lose 10 pounds by my next visit which is tomorrow. I have only lost 5 and a half pounds. I feel basically like a failure. It frustrated me this morning while I was getting ready for another doctor appointment to discover that I was "Too Big" for a table they had for a bone density test. I almost cried on the spot. It really hurt to realize that I had failed to lose the weight. Then, I realized that it was my fault. Up until the last couple of days, I was doing really well, thinking I had everything in the bag, I kind of cheated some. I pay for that by not accomplishing the goal the Dietitian set for me.

I soon realized that I did accomplish one BIG goal that I have tried to deal with for the full 6 month period. I was finally able to stop drinking the diet sodas and eating the goodies that I had been doing all the time. I was finally able to stop eating the meats and sandwiches that added the pounds on... I have finally been doing the walking that is required to be more firmly capable. I needed this because I don't really want to be flabby after I lose the weight that I need and want to lose.  I finally feel like I am able to walk more and get around much better. I am able to feel better as I write this because I feel like I was able to accomplish something in spite of not losing the weight I was challenged to do. I hope that I can continue to deal with my situation more so.  It finally feels good to realize that I did do something I should. I just have to continue to try harder and do my best, after all, I will be having the surgery in a couple of months. It is a blast!!

So, in short, I am doing what I can to lose the weight that I have been challenged to do. I finally feel great and appreciative of the challenges I have had. Thanks to God for all I am able to do. Now, I can be the best I can be. I only hope that this will continue to improve my personal feelings about myself. On to the next level...