Political reality or How to avoid conflict on anything...making a commitment

The title as you may have guessed, is misleading. I don't make arguements on religious or political decisions. I've always felt that people have their opinions on how the United States is run. I'm not afraid to tell you how I feel, just feel it is only important if speaking to someone who really wants to hear my ideals and making hasty conversation is not included. In other words, don't be waiting to make a snappy comeback answer, because I won't be asking the question.
As of late, I have made a commitment...I've decided that I am going to improve my physical self and my spiritual self. I've mentioned this in my last blog but tonight, I wish to give a bit more detail on what my decision involves. I found out that I am going to be having a sleep study for the possibility (more than likely) of me having sleep apnea. Since it has hit everyone else in the family, I would be surprised if I don't have it. My first visit with the specialist is the 14th of July. From there, who knows...probably the overnight sleep test in a strange twin bed and a cold room at a hospital. The result to be told to my insurance company so they can decide if I am ALLOWED to have future treatment for the condition.

Next, I will be going to a Weight Maintenance class that will last 6 months, learning how to eat, exercise and control what I eat and how much, just to mention a bit. If I am successful at the attempt to lose weight and take seriously the lifestyle change, I will again hear an answer through my insurance company as to whether they think I am a worthy candidate to have Gastric By-pass surgery and totally change my attitude and looks. I am going to be skinny for the first time in my entire life. Imagine that!!
Another major decision that will go along with this one is taking my spiritual life more seriously. I can't imagine that I will accomplish the physical, mental and emotional attitude change without using a lot of the spiritual to keep a positive outlook on things. I must trust in Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ to help me do my best to accomplish this goal. I know it is going to be a struggle and that there may be many frustrating moments... I just hope I don't take my anger and frustration out on anyone or anything. I don't like to diet and to be totally honest I HATE dieting. I don't like having to give up the cookies, and cakes, ice cream and chocolates etc...especially noodle dishes...My weakness, since I got used to eating them as a child to maximize meal consumption for a family of 7 kids on a military budget in the 50's and 60's...
I am going to deal with all these situations one piece at a time...after all, you can't eat an elephant in one bite. Just one day at a time. Slow and steady. fall and get back up...

Ignorance is not bliss

Now that is a fact, let me explain. I have watched this past year fly by me  like a kite in the wind. I have done absolutely nothing to show or share my life with my friends and family. Yes, I did run back and forth to Utah and Colorado and typed my life away on facebook and twitter, but I've done nothing to show what I can improve myself. Sitting every day watching TV and playing the Computer. Well, things are changing...FINALLY EH??  To start with, I went to church last Sunday and really enjoyed the meeting. I was proud of myself, not like pride, but more like I finally quit failing at keeping at least one of my personal goals. I know to some of you it sounds silly, but for me? it is a very good start. The last few years I have spent waaay to much time feeling sorry for number 1...and not enough time doing something about it. I also now am getting things started to lose weight and prepare for Bariatric Surgery...or Gastric Bypass...I have a six month weight maintenance program to do and then I will finally get the surgery. It is a scarey but exciting project for me. I've always been chubby or just plain fat. My input was and still is greater than my output. I love food especially the starches and sweets...the more the better. Courage is a big word and fortitude is a new word for me. I've been content (to a frustrating since) to just let things be...NO MORE!!!
I have always wanted to be smaller than I am but, I haven't had the fortitude to do something about it. At one point, I couldn't because of the finances, now with Health insurance and Medicare, I can finally take care of me... The first dr's visit was taking care of some skin tags (may be cancerous, though none have been so far) and a couple of minor skin lesions. I also found out that I am a possible candidate for Diabetes if I don't back down on the goodies and starches. I am also twice my perfect weight and dealing with High Cholesterol and a fast beating/irregular heart beat. With the anxiety and depression and Fibromyalgia, I figure something I can take care of should be. Thus, if I lose weight and have the surgery, the diabetes and cholesterol problems should go away...then, on the the rest of the issues to keep me in line with what I have to daily contend with.
Once the medical issues are under control, I will deal with more of the other issues, one at a time. Concurrently, I will be going to church and trying to prepare myself for my spiritual well being. If the physical and spiritual self is in hand, the rest will follow suit...I am so grateful that I can finally do something I've wanted to do for a long time. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father and all he does for me...

The one thing that is going along the back of my mind is how should I deal with the structure of life I want to lead. Because of the health issues, I've all but ignored until recently the real world situation around me. I guess if I didn't see it, it wasn't happening. I am truly frustrated with the way things are going,. Opinions are immediately turned around and taken so literally that people are actually angry rather than dealing out constructive information. I guess if I feel something about the issue at hand, I will learn more about it and try to see both sides.  I do know that I have to wait again to deal with these issues, wait until it's time for me to work it out...because First, it's health and spiritual and then the rest will fall in line....Gotta love it y'all...