Contentions

A lot of things have happened in the last couple of months but first...I need to apologize for not contributing wisdom of thought here...
I guess I got caught up in Facebook games and artwork. just coloring and scraping tin items...I seemed to have forgotten that these sights were even around. I only hope that the information I have gained since being here last is worthy of use...
I have finally made peace with the situation here at the house...Everything will improve until we decide if we really want to move again...I believe this time (after we complete the lease) we will go...also it seems that I have been more anxious to get about and do things. Being here isn't allowing me to do that...also we might consider a second car because though the truck is operational, it is too small if we want to go somewhere and invite friends or family to go with us...

Heavenly Father is constantly reminding me of my obligations and ways I can improve myself..hygiene and health are becoming my first goals..of course after church, family and friends..family being first of course!! It's not that I am ungrateful for my family (Whiteheads or Greens) I just haven't taken the time to notice what I can do for me.. I only hope that I can learn to even out the situations in my life and do what I need to do to fulfill my goals as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints...I am very happy to provide my testimony if anyone is interested and even just to show how proud I am to be of this sect...LDS rocks.....

Is it over yet?

I mentioned in fb that I finally had my cry last night. I cried for the hurt Suzie will feel in the time to come, the discomfort of having to leave her alone, the frustration of knowing what she has to go through and for being just plain tired and exhausted from the whole situation.

I didn't mention how much I prayed while I cried that she would have a beautiful relationship with her family. I also didn't mention that the hurt I felt is but a small sample of how Jesus Christ must have felt when he had to suffer for our sins. I was so besot with despair that I could only imagine how he felt even the tiniest little bit. I knew that he was there with me last night as I prayed for more strength and understanding.

I know that everything will work out for Suzie and the kids. I know that time heals all wounds and helps us to cope in a level we don't understand at this time. Heavenly Father has given me this knowledge time and again and everytime I get reminded, it's with a better understanding of what is meant.

Even now as I speak of this, I realize with the greatest respect that I would never feel the pain he felt in Gethsemane and I realize also that I love him more for what he did for me and all of us. I want you to know that I know my Father lives and loves me. I know the church is true and that Thomas S. Monson is the living Prophet of this era in time. I know without a doubt that the Atonement made by Jesus Christ is the true reason for this church and the only way we can be with him in eternal life. I also know that Suzie is blessed with an eternal companion who is waiting patiently for her when the time is right. In the meantime, he is busy doing the promises and teachings that Heavenly father has for him...

It's been a while

A lot of things have happened in the last couple of months but first...I need to apologize for not contributing wisdom of thought here...
I guess I got caught up in Facebook games and artwork. just coloring and scraping tin items...I seemed to have forgotten that these sights were even around. I only hope that the information I have gained since being here last is worthy of use...
I have finally made peace with the situation here at the house...Everything will improve until we decide if we really want to move again...I believe this time (after we complete the lease) we will go...also it seems that I have been more anxious to get about and do things. Being here isn't allowing me to do that...also we might consider a second car because though the truck is operational, it is too small if we want to go somewhere and invite friends or family to go with us...

Heavenly Father is constantly reminding me of my obligations and ways I can improve myself..hygiene and health are becoming my first goals..of course after church, family and friends..family being first of course!! It's not that I am ungrateful for my family (Whiteheads or Greens) I just haven't taken the time to notice what I can do for me.. I only hope that I can learn to even out the situations in my life and do what I need to do to fulfill my goals as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints...I am very happy to provide my testimony if anyone is interested and even just to show how proud I am to be of this sect...LDS rocks...

Literary Genius?? oooops!! aka Silly Solutions

Sometimes I tend to be over serious...then there is the other 80% of the time...  well, you know. I've made at least a million wrong decisions in my life. The lingering one right now is my 'lack' of energy or ambition to go to church every Sunday. I think the last time I went was Christmas, last year, in Red Mesa..oh and this year in August after Rick's funeral....I read my scriptures as often as I can, usually 4 or 5 times a week. I know that there is no excuse for my absence...Though at times my health is a reason. When I do go, it's only for Sacrament meeting as I can't sit much longer than that. I know it is a good thing to make as my resolution and I intend to do so...

Life decisions

Life decisions for religious preference, political views, job paths, educational level, marriage or no? Yeah there are a lot of choices to make here. Since I've already made most of my decisions, I only need to follow up and keep them current and myself capable of  following them. Every thing we do in our lives is brought about through making a decision, whether it be a conscious one or reflexive. I can go on with this jabber but I will elaborate different areas in future blogs. My "Literary Genius" blog has disappeared and I can only hope that someday I will retain some of the memories of thar site and pass it on to the future. I cannot post on my "Jan-the real me" blog because it was created inder an old mail address that is no longer plausible,  however, you can still read it and I will have it attached to this blog along with a few literary genius' blogs that I admire at this time...