Success comes in small steps

Our many months of struggling and trying to pay off debt is starting to pay off. Gary and I have been making a concerted effort to get ourselves into a better type of life. I'm not saying we want maids, butlers or any of that type of thing and heaven forbid, we don't need a Rolls Royce...but it would be nice to have some kind of 'normal' life.

Normal is something I've never been. Of course, that depends on what is normal to you. I have always felt that if life is comfortable and you can live with what you have, why change it? Furthuring this idea is the lack of motivation to make the change and the lack of energy to have the motivation to make the change. I can bring in the depression, anxiety and worry of making a change and other such excuses, but they are just that...excuses...

When I made the conscious effort to improve my health, I started going to the Doctor and was directed in many areas of need for my efforts. It caused some frustration and confusion but I began to realize something. If you want things to improve, you have to go through tough times to gain the improvement. I have since that time, found my health is not so bad after all. I have some pounds to lose and also a weight maintenance program I am in...this goal gives me the opportunity to have the surgery I need to lose all the weight I need to in order to gain a better and healthier lifestyle.

In the same perspective, Gary and I had to decide that we could either live from day to day or week to week...OR we could get ourselves out of debt and be able to have more freedom... to be able to choose if we WANT to stay home or if we would like to go somewhere. Right now, we are on the in between... We are not broke, but then, we can't go galavanting off to anywhere in the world and play around either. We have taken steps to control our spending, pay our bills and get ourselves in a better frame of mind. Today, we tried to qualify for a mortgage today and are within points of qualifying.. I never even dreamed last year I could even think of getting our own home. Now, with a few changes and some clean up work, we could very well be home owners by the middle or sooner of next year.

Making up my mind to change my lifestyle is a challenge for me indeed. It has afforded me and my family and friends the opportunity to get together more, to provide a better perspective on life itself and also to give me a chance to know for myself that I can do what I want to within reason. These choices are only the beginning of a new life for me...My goals are always the same...it's how I approach them that has made them different...