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It's been a while
Thursday, September 23, 2010, 4:44:28 PM | noreply@blogger.com (Jan)
A lot of things have happened in the last couple of months but first...I need to apologize for not contributing wisdom of thought here...
I guess I got caught up in Facebook games and artwork. just coloring and scraping tin items...I seemed to have forgotten that these sights were even around. I only hope that the information I have gained since being here last is worthy of use...
I have finally made peace with the situation here at the house...Everything will improve until we decide if we really want to move again...I believe this time (after we complete the lease) we will go...also it seems that I have been more anxious to get about and do things. Being here isn't allowing me to do that...also we might consider a second car because though the truck is operational, it is too small if we want to go somewhere and invite friends or family to go with us...
Heavenly Father is constantly reminding me of my obligations and ways I can improve myself..hygiene and health are becoming my first goals..of course after church, family and friends..family being first of course!! It's not that I am ungrateful for my family (Whiteheads or Greens) I just haven't taken the time to notice what I can do for me.. I only hope that I can learn to even out the situations in my life and do what I need to do to fulfill my goals as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints...I am very happy to provide my testimony if anyone is interested and even just to show how proud I am to be of this sect...LDS rocks...
Is it over yet?
Friday, August 27, 2010, 10:45:27 PM | noreply@blogger.com (Jan)
I mentioned in fb that I finally had my cry last night. I cried for the hurt Suzie will feel in the time to come, the discomfort of having to leave her alone, the frustration of knowing what she has to go through and for being just plain tired and exhausted from the whole situation.
I didn't mention how much I prayed while I cried that she would have a beautiful relationship with her family. I also didn't mention that the hurt I felt is but a small sample of how Jesus Christ must have felt when he had to suffer for our sins. I was so besot with despair that I could only imagine how he felt even the tiniest little bit. I knew that he was there with me last night as I prayed for more strength and understanding.
I know that everything will work out for Suzie and the kids. I know that time heals all wounds and helps us to cope in a level we don't understand at this time. Heavenly Father has given me this knowledge time and again and everytime I get reminded, it's with a better understanding of what is meant.
Even now as I speak of this, I realize with the greatest respect that I would never feel the pain he felt in Gethsemane and I realize also that I love him more for what he did for me and all of us. I want you to know that I know my Father lives and loves me. I know the church is true and that Thomas S. Monson is the living Prophet of this era in time. I know without a doubt that the Atonement made by Jesus Christ is the true reason for this church and the only way we can be with him in eternal life. I also know that Suzie is blessed with an eternal companion who is waiting patiently for her when the time is right. In the meantime, he is busy doing the promises and teachings that Heavenly father has for him...
I didn't mention how much I prayed while I cried that she would have a beautiful relationship with her family. I also didn't mention that the hurt I felt is but a small sample of how Jesus Christ must have felt when he had to suffer for our sins. I was so besot with despair that I could only imagine how he felt even the tiniest little bit. I knew that he was there with me last night as I prayed for more strength and understanding.
I know that everything will work out for Suzie and the kids. I know that time heals all wounds and helps us to cope in a level we don't understand at this time. Heavenly Father has given me this knowledge time and again and everytime I get reminded, it's with a better understanding of what is meant.
Even now as I speak of this, I realize with the greatest respect that I would never feel the pain he felt in Gethsemane and I realize also that I love him more for what he did for me and all of us. I want you to know that I know my Father lives and loves me. I know the church is true and that Thomas S. Monson is the living Prophet of this era in time. I know without a doubt that the Atonement made by Jesus Christ is the true reason for this church and the only way we can be with him in eternal life. I also know that Suzie is blessed with an eternal companion who is waiting patiently for her when the time is right. In the meantime, he is busy doing the promises and teachings that Heavenly father has for him...
Contentions
Thursday, August 19, 2010, 6:48:25 PM | noreply@blogger.com (Jan)
I am amazed at how easy it is to find complaints, and discontent in the world. Just today as I was inquiring on facebook, I found choices...yes, no, not sure etc. Questions that could end up in arguments and regrets for a later time. It has been a very tough few months and with Richard's passing. I've come to realize that this life is very fleeting and that maybe...just maybe..too short for us to dwell on other's problems. I know it is a good thing to help people and to pray for all to be able to maintain a good life...and to overcome their struggles. I am just tired of all the anger and frustration that has shown up on this earth these last few years.
Heavenly Father has full control of my life. I know I must make my own decisions, but I also know that if I do the right course, he is always there to help me. Today, I made a statement which I ammediately regretted. As I turned to look at my sister, it struck me...I was angry at those types of statements only a few years ago. I appologized immediately and cried for my guilt. I realize that I should show more understanding on life's conflicts and solutions.
It is up to us to keep our hearts in the right place. It is up to us to continue to show compassion and love to all our fellow human beings. It is also up to me to remember who I am and to recognize my falacies before I try to point out someone elses.
Just remember always, Jesus loves me...If he can love a struggling depressed person with aches and pains, then that person (aka...me) knows without a doubt. I can love me..and I can share my love and belief with all those around me...
Just do the best you can...and avoid contentious attitudes and conflicts...
Love to all....
The 4th....a day of recollection and visitation
Monday, July 19, 2010, 10:19:20 PM | noreply@blogger.com (Jan)
Hi, I really had a great day today (make it yesterday). I started it with my new committment of reading the scriptures and having a quick breakfast. We kicked around the house abit and then headed to Caruthers CA... I was so excited.. I was going to see a friend of mine that I hadn't seen in about 16 years.
Elva was there with her husband Joe and son, Joseph. We hugged for a couple minutes talking excitedly and went into the house and on through to the back yard. I hugged a few family members and met a crew of people I didn't know. We sat around a shady area of the yard. Arnold's house has huge trees in the yard and a lot of room for people to play and just visit. They had 5 little chihuahuas running around the place. It looked like a lot of quivering barking little snacks for Punkyn. They had three that were the typical chihuahuas and one with fur around the body and a fifth that had curley hair...It was the tiniest... They spent the day walking around the yard, doing vacuuming duties from all the people as we ate good mexican food and drank plenty of soda and water.
We caught up on life as if it had been friday that we saw each other last. There was a tether ball tournament that Joseph won,beating out everyone else who challenged him. Then it got serious, a bad mitton challenge... Janie and her son held the lead for about four sets of players... Her daughter Amanda and her husband finally came in and put them down in two sets. After this, we continued to consume beverages and food stuffs...As the day wound down, we watched some simple family fireworks and around 10:30, we left for home. I had a very good time and was greatful that I could visit my friends and just enjoy a free day celebrating freedom...
I continue to be amazed that so many people offered thanks for the 4th of July. I appreciate what the people who fought the many different wars and challenges that we faced as a nation brought us to this conclusion. We started this nation on the premise of gaining independence and freedom of religion. We also did the trials and tribulations of growing and maintaining the qualities of life we have now attained. God bless you all and may God bless America...
Unintentions
Monday, July 19, 2010, 10:10:01 PM | noreply@blogger.com (Jan)
Sometimes you need to take a bit of bruising in order to work things out. I guess these last two day proved that to me. I got caught up in a trap of my own making. I thought (horribly so) that I was being attacked for something I didn't do. I bit my lip and tried to make since of the conflict. After much (not so much after thinking about it) soul searching and prayer (who waited for an answer??), I wrote a letter to communicate my feelings, thinking that it was the right thing to do. There was some more conflict but after some crying and reasoning things out in my mind, I appologized and explained what I thought happened. At that point, I found out I was right after all. Appologies were made all around and the issue was resolved. I know that if I had been more patient and given my anger up to the Lord, I would have been more attentive to the warnings that I was given. I felt the need for revenge and found out that I will suffer consiquences if I do what I did.
Heavenly Father is here for a reason, to keep us upright and doing the things we promised we would do. As a weak human being, we are here to pay respect to him and to those around us. Once again, I learned that issue. Here's hoping that I remember more of what I learned and continue to do the things I must.
it's in the interpretation...
Monday, July 12, 2010, 5:31:34 PM | noreply@blogger.com (Jan)
ƃuıɥɔʇɐʍǝq ןןıʍ ı ˙snʇɐʇs ɹnoʎ uı sıɥʇ ǝʇsɐd puɐ ʎdoɔ ˙uoıʇuǝʇʇɐ sʎɐd ʎןןɐnʇɔɐʇsıן spuǝıɹɟ ʎɯ uı oɥʍ ǝǝs s,ʇǝl
This statement above is for those who have an excellent recall of the english language... It is awesome to see what type of things people write and how it is interpreted.
Recently, I had a discussion with some friends and family about the bible and our thoughts on different basic concepts of it. As usual, the trinity is one of the challenges that most religions cannot grasp. Then also, there is the idea of who wrote what and how it has been 'changed' so much that it's like a story book.
I understand where they come from. Before I joined the church, I felt that way about the Book of Mormon. Now, when I read it, I am filled with the spirit and I know without a doubt that it's true... Maybe when eyes are opened, and hearts want to receive, the scriptures will find their place in every home and on every tongue...
What do I want in Life?
Sunday, July 04, 2010, 12:15:07 AM | noreply@blogger.com (Jan)
Gosh, I guess this one is of great interest, at least to me.
I want to be able to provide help and assistance to all those that I can. I want to know that I can do useful things and make accomplishments. I want to volunteer my time and energy to the church and to be able to know that what I do is for a great need. I want to help all those who are sick and afflicted with trial and tribulations so that life is wonderful...
Oh, wait...this is serious isn't it?? Well I still want to do all the above, but within the reasonings of my health, and especially the faith I would need to do such a thing. I want to know that I did the best I could and also that I am able to hold my head up and smile at the files that are created in Heaven. I want to be able to live a full eternal life with my husband and family members.
I want to have chocolate when I can afford it and also to be able to enjoy my food stuffs until I take real responsibility for my weight.
I want to hug and kiss my grandsons when ever I feel like it. I want to spoil all of them to the degree that I can keep them from expecting it all the time (with in reason of course). I want EVERYONE to know of how much I am proud of my children, grandchildren, and other relatives for their accomplishments and not to be afraid to show these to all who care to look upon them.
And lastly, I want to be able to provide for all the travels and the blessed trip to Thialand that my husband has been dreaming of for 19 looooong years.
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